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2003-04-05 @ 9:15 p.m.
Meanwhile, the whole time that I wasn't working, (3 weeks), I felt so alone, depressed, and not knowing what to do with myself. I really hate it when I feel like this and can't figure a way out of it. Now that I am back to work, I'm slowly getting out of these feelings that I have been having. Feelings of being alone, afraid of what will happen next in my life...I don't know...but, what I do know is that I need to get myself back together...I'm tired of feeling alone, being alone...I'm not saying that I am co-dependent, because I am very independent...I was raised and taught to be independent...but, there are just times that it gets really tough. I know that things will get easier...they always find a way of doing so...I just hate it when I take myself too seriously sometimes...
I'm going to have to do more soul searching with my life once again. The strange thing is that I have noticed is that I get feeling this way is since PG and I split up, and then I finally pull myself out of it...I hear from PG...how strange is that...maybe it's because I still have feelings for him...but, I know that eventually, when I least expect it, the right person will come along and both he and I will be happy for the rest of our lives...no broken hearts for either one of us. Life is too precious to hurt all the time...I hope that makes sense because it is just so hard to explain right now...**sigh**
~Victorianna~